(I was asked to provide this devotional for the Cooperative Baptist Fellowship of NC)
Exodus 17:1-7, Matthew 21:23-32
(Readings for Year A, 15th Sunday after Pentecost)
I’ve often heard folks—good, churchgoing folks—say, “I know we’re not supposed to question God, but…” And then they unload a perplexing theological question or a life situation for which they have been unable to find a rationale. I’m not certain of the origin of this idea of not questioning God. It’s certainly not biblical.
When one surveys the state of the world today, it’s hard not to question God. Consider recent natural disasters—earthquake, hurricane, wild fires—and that was just one week in North Carolina! What’s more, look at what we’re doing to ourselves: violence, terrorism, war, greed, oppression of women and children, persecution of minorities, harassment of immigrants, trafficking of young girls, poverty, starvation, genocide. Is the Lord among us or not?
That’s exactly the question asked in the first Old Testament lection for this Sunday. It seems to me that our Jewish friends have a robust tradition of openly questioning God and God’s (in)action, yet followers of Christ often struggle to bring themselves to do so.
Holocaust survivor Elie Wiesel wrote a play some years ago called The Trial of God. The play is based loosely on Wiesel’s experience as a teenager at the Nazi death camp Auschwitz. In that concentration camp, God was put on trial by three Jewish rabbis. On the holy day of Rosh Hashanah, from a place of deep anguish and sorrow, the prisoners of Auschwitz called God to judgment and condemnation for creating a world where such evil and suffering exists—and then not intervening to stop it. “The trial lasted several nights. Witnesses were heard, evidence was gathered, conclusions were drawn, and the verdict was unanimous—the Lord God Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth, was found guilty of crimes against creation and humankind.”[1]
And then, after what Wiesel describes as “infinity of silence,” one rabbi looked toward the heavens and said, “It’s time for evening prayers,” and the members of the court began to recite the Maariv, evening prayer.
Wiesel’s point here is profound—for people of faith, it is possible to question God, but not to live without God. We know that if we are honest, we can (and must) question God. But we also know that questioning God is not a rejection of God. Questioning God rests in the presumption that God is here—present with us and listening to us—and that God is strong enough to take our questioning. And so, when at our wit’s end, we grab God by the collar…and hold on. As the main character in Wiesel’s play declares, “I lived as a Jew, and it is as a Jew that I shall die—and it is as a Jew that, with my last breath, I shall shout my protest to God!”
But what next—what happens after we’ve had our say, after we’ve shaken our fist in God’s face, after we’ve shouted our questions and raised our protest?
Let’s look at the Gospel lection. After his confrontation with the religious leaders, Jesus tells them a parable. A man tells one of his sons to go to work in the vineyard, but the son refuses. Later, however, the son changes his mind and goes to the field to work. The man’s tells his other son the same thing. But this son complies with the request, but then changes his mind and does not go into the field. “Which son did the father’s will?” asks Jesus. The answer is clear—the son who initially refuses his father’s request, but then obeys.
It seems to me that Jesus is saying that real faith begins when, after you have had your say, had your protest with God, you get up and you do God’s work in the world.
Real faith begins not when God answers all our questions to our satisfaction. Rather, real faith begins when we hear Christ’s call and decide to get up and follow him into a world in desperate need. Real faith begins when we learn to serve rather than be served, love instead of hate, laugh in the face of despair, and lose our lives for Christ’s sake and that of this world.
[1] From Robert McAfee Brown’s introduction to The Trial of God.